"There was a time in our lives when we were so close that nothing seemed to obstruct our friendship and brotherhood, and only a small footbridge seperated us Just as you were about to step on it, I asked you:"Do you want to cross the footbridge to me?"--immediately, you did not want to any more; and when I asked you again, you remained silent. Since then mountains and torrential rivers and whatever separates and alienates have been cast between us, and even if we wanted to get together, we couldn't. But when you now think of that little footbridge, words fail you and you sob and marvel."
Stuff that is ridiculous:
Saturday, February 16, 2008

So. I'm talking to Nicholas about college.
And he's all crazy psyched about A&M. (Texas A&M) Cause he's already been accepted and they visited today. And well, here-
Nick: dude
Nick: that rec center thing with the wieght rooms and stuff is free for students
Nick: omg!
Nick: paradise!
Nick: everything i'll ever need (aside from transportation) is right there on campus
Nick: im talkin the garden of eden
Nick: wow
Nick: that's awesome
Nick: i'll go to class, read in the library, go to class, eat at the delicious dining hall, go to class, bowl, go to class, work out
me: : )
me: too good to be true
Nick: lol
me: but it is
Nick: yeah
Nick: watch it be some sort of catch
Nick: like i got to sign off my soul to satan or something

Which made me wince. Because honestly. That's what I'm afraid of.
Like..I'm still afraid that he doesn't know how to handle himself. I'm afraid of drugs and alchohol. And falling in with bad people. Who curse. And won't respect his religious beliefs. And
Which is a small scary monster possibility that lives in my chest.
And you know. I love them. I love all of the kids who face that possibility. And it's not fair. And it makes me seriously consider Liberty.

But poor, ol' Nicholas. He's so darn excited. and he has to wait a million months till he can even go. He's so smart.
Like for real.

He's going to start college when he's 16.
All my talented fam.
dulce hermano...

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1 comments:

emilea said...

okay, 16? are you serious? i would stay home and make lots of money at a full time job until i could go at 18, like the rest of normal people.

(says the girl who will be taking college classes next fall...hopefully)

so i decided i wanted to comment on people's blogs, read and reply to your emails, but not post or send any other emails. yesterday i completely broke down in the car. my english teacher scratched my essay to shreds, so i had to start all over again, and so i hope that she will like this draft better. anyways.

but if i could swim i would swim out to you in the ocean, swim out to where you were floating in the dark.

love you like crazy.
miss you like chocolate.
want you here more than anything,

emilea

February 20, 2008 at 6:21 AM  

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